The Smell..... Our's....

Smell... Long time back someone had blogged about smell... How it reminds you of someone and how nostalgic you get... How soon you get into the memories... It's amazing... In a strand of hair, clothes, pillow etc...

Today... I go back into the memories... And I cry holding my (our) blanket... The smell.. reminded me of soooo much....... It's all become memories in no time.... Im sad... I cry... holding the blanket tight.... Why? Why couldn't I have had that smell in my blanket forever? I wanted it... I need it... That smell... I loved it... so much.... Why? what have I done to deserve this? Fuck.. It's killing me inside... I hate it... suddenly that smell which used I used to hate has become so precious.... Fuck... fuck... fuck...

Move on? Fuck you!

Will I be the same anymore?

I think I am losing my charm, I use to be so playful, cheerful, spreading laughter around... What happened to me? why have I become like this? Is this me? what's gotten into me? i need clarity. My friend says, In confusion you will find clarity. So I am waiting. . . . . Do i wait? how long? i wana be happy again. I know we can find happiness within oursleves, but it is not easy. though trying wouldn't hurt me. A nice company makes me happy, but again... everything is shortlived. . .

Jealousy

Why do ppl get jealous? What is the feeling? Is there a need? If yes, any remedy? Cure? No, I don’t think so... its all in ones mind…

To be contd....

I Need The Answers, NOW!!!

I need the answers now... What am I going through? All species need is, to be Happy!! But where do I find happiness?? And what happiness is for me is not for others… Who cares??@## I just wana be happy and blissful.. And right now I am. I don’t want to lose it.. but why do I feel that all the happiness ends cos of someone or something? Why should I think of what mite or might not happen? Yes, im happy today and I know it... No I can’t deceive myself… What am I trying to put into words here? And No! I don’t wanna pretend… I leave this hanging… I leave this to the world and adjudicators to decide.. Who decides all…. Every bloody thing………

Just Let Me Be!!!!

Relations between the four walls…

Just being in a family is not the only thing which matters. You need to prove how important you are, and let me mention this – In your own way!! Siblings are not always meant to be the carbon copy like the blogger’s parents fallacy. Everybody has their individuality which should not be forgotten. The worst thing parents can do is to judge against the other sibling (if they have one). Blogger has been severely affected now and again because of this. Though it may sound inane to some let’s be cautious and see that no child is affected as I am… in return we understand them, be patient, Confront them, listen them out and be there for them as they were there for us.. Always…..

I, Me, Myself....

What is it that I am looking for?
Is it not good enough to take life in a painless way?
In the way you want it?
Or is it that ppl dictate your life?
Live the way you want it to.
Needn’t necessarily smile all the while…
Do not fool around
Do not play with others feelings
Understand Understand Understand!?!?
Not that I don’t want to,
But there is an edge to everything!
And I guess I have reached there!